But... things have changed a bit in my life. My new role in life is a mommy and with that comes not only a baby, but a bulky car seat and other baby paraphernalia. Secretly, part of the reason why I was scared to take the baby by myself was because I was afraid that it wouldn't be possible in my car and to be honest with myself, it really isn't.
You see, my gorgeous, fabulous car has a nearly non-existent backseat. What is there is barely functional, complete with bucket seats, which means no middle seat to install the car seat, which is the safest location in a vehicle. It's hard to nearly impossible to get said bulky car seat in and out. Which means Mommy has to climb into the nearly non-existent back seat to strap in the car seat. Ugh, it is so sad. You shouldn't be breathing hard and glistening from putting your baby in the car.
Not only is it nearly impossible to have a car seat back there, but our stroller physically won't fit in the truck, which means it had to be wedged in to ride shotgun. This cuts down on visibility and also means that the bulky car seat had to be placed behind the driver's seat.
This meant that I had to sit at an awkward angle even closer to the steering wheel than I already am! I'm only 5ft tall and I have some short legs, so I already have to sit close to the steering wheel, any closer and I'm going to be resting my chin on it. I had to inch a little closer to make room for Jack's seat in the back. Grrr... this makes me sad.
So with all of the above said, and all of the safety issues considered, it's just not going to work. I'm afraid that I have to say goodbye to the last vestiges of my life before baby. I hope that people don't think I'm selfish for feeling sad about giving up my car. I KNOW what's important in life and I love being a mom and I wouldn't give it up for anything, but... my car. It's MY CAR!!! I know it's right to get something more baby-friendly, but that doesn't mean I won't cry when I sell my gorgeous car. And that doesn't mean that I have to like it.
Part of being a mom is making sacrifices. Sometimes that means missing a meal while getting your baby fed. Sometimes that means saying goodbye to things that you love. But that's life.
Well, I'm off to Craig's List to see what sort of vehicles are available that won't make me feel like a total Soccer Mom. Wish me luck!
And P.S. if you don't think it's selfish of me to feel sad about having to give up my car let me know because I'm feeling a little guilty : /